cmin here was finally a good idea even if it suked to da vry core.....i learned a lotta things...n im glad im not da same ol person who blamed himself for da smallest mistakes....arg....im not him nemore ..not nemore...da scars still hurt but im proud of wat i have become now..i dont fear nemore..no more..2 nothing...its inevitable ...death walks past me without a glance.....it frustrated me b4 but not nemore..im stronger now..mentally n physically ...
I never could've seen this far
I never could've seen this coming
Seems like my world's falling apart
Yeah
Why is everything so hard
I don't think I can deal with the things you said
It just won't go away
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
I used to think that I was strong
Until the day it all went wrong
I think I need a miracle to make it through
Yeah
I wish that I could bring you back
I wish that I could turn back time
Coz I can't let go
I just can't find my way
Yeah
Without you I just can't find my way
[Perfect World lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
I don't know what I should do now
I don't know where I should go
Still here waiting for you
I'm lost when you're not around
I need to hold on to you
I just can't let you go
Yeah
Yeah
In a perfect world
This could never happen
In a perfect world
You'd still be here
And it makes no sense
I could just pick up the pieces
But to you
This means nothing
Nothing at all
You feel nothing at all
Nothing at all
Darkness turns to light
As death turns to life
Wha… she shudders
As her face turns white
This didn’t happen before
She loses her grip
The knife falls to the floor
She ties to stumble home
But in this alley
She is all alone
She starts to cry
“oh god i don’t want to die”
But death will slowly come
Dosent matter how fast she can run, hide
Or how many problems she can deny
“I said I would quit”
Then something made me slip
I don’t know what to do
Someone.. might help me through
But that is all a lie
Im going to die
I might as well face it
Another promise?
I would break it
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I never wanted it to be this way…
There was no premeditated plan or malicious intention,
In the creation of you my sin.
I never asked for the past I lived,
I didn’t plan the future I have,
Nor did I want what fell between.
I didn’t see the betrayal while it happened,
By my hand and action I still was blind,
Even when I though my lesson was learned it happened again.
Tell me My Sin, did you ever know,
That when our friendship was given life,
I smiled my first smile,
A crooked thing but true in its honesty.
I was naive in dreams, and stupid with hope,
But the smile was pure.
When our friendship died, My Sin,
Still I smiled…
So sure I was for its rebirth I erred again in forgiveness.
And to hide my deepest scar…
That smile still holds…invisible tears fall.
Hopeless, I gave my heart to sorrow,
And under the cloak of your lies,
My soul keeps true to you, My Sin.
People hear what whispers say,
But no one hears what’s never said,
And no one accepts what will never be understood.
Take me as you see fit My Sin,
For I am all you think you know,
And all you think I am not,
I am free from your delusions.
I can fly as high as my heart will let me,
I can fall no farther then you’ve thrown me,
The world is up-side right,
And you’re too far to the left.
But tell me My Sin…
Was there fine print I’ve not seen till now?
Could it be…that I am your Sin as well?
Could that be the punch line?
Is that the answer to what’s never been asked?
But is it possible that misery holds strong,
Only because a pointless hope for chance,
Still lingers in your heart?
Is it right to dare think…
That such torment will be forgiven
Because you might have made a mistake?
Even though silence is all that I hear,
I expect no answers, as Sin has no voice.
I have moved on carried the winds of fate,
Since to linger in such darkness…
Would destroy what little I have left of myself.
It’s a lonely existence My Sin,
To live the lies that could never be.
To hate the one who decided life was worth something more,
More than the lies and empty promises.
Even though so much was left unsaid,
In the end, you’re the only one that can answer…
The questions that have never been asked.
Love only penetrates
To a certain degree.
Lust will go on
For only so long.
Addiction will motivate
Only until you come down
Off that high.
Music and humor numbs
Until you build a tolerance
To it all.
But when food finally loses
Its varied taste
What will it be then?
When inspiration leaves the writer's mind
What will be left?
Simply empty...
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Come collect rainy days with me.
You're the only one worth the wake up.
Bury your black eye in the palm of my hand.
And I'll try my best to reconstruct our souls.
It's believable if I'm not lying to you.
I've tried the real world, it left a bad taste.
It's remarkable if you can believe it.
I've tried the actual brand, it left a bad taste.
Come collect bruised egos with me.
You're the only one worth the time.
Vanish in the bones of my chest.
And I'll try my best to say something.
Got a few new scars on my right upper arm lst nite....but WTF.....er..>_>...atleast today was better then da usual other days...got a piercing done on my eyebrow 2day ..lolz....n tink im gonna get a tatoo done also till da 26th..muahahha.............*(mums gonna kill me)*
..........Later.....
I'm shooting blanks through my fingers that feel like missiles.
Instead of my nails, my ears seem to want to smoke and.
And it's all your fault, this impotence and undeserving. . .
This internal punch that rattles my ins and my outs.
Most Likely To Never Give In, but this time I did.
I hope the promises that we made break in your mouth.
You'll never make another pact with somebody else.
Saying I love you will rot out all your little teeth.
Most Likely To Never Want To Lose Or Quit, but this time I really did.
I'm faking my ability to not notice this.
My own bone dry eyes don't even know what I'm saying.
I would write you off if I could find any of the right words and use them.
I can't; you're sitting pretty with my inspiration.
Most Likely To Never Take It To Heart, but this time I did.
I hope the promises that we made break in your chest.
You'll never make another pact with somebody else.
Saying I love you will rot out the wood of your heart.
