My Sin

I never wanted it to be this way…
There was no premeditated plan or malicious intention,
In the creation of you my sin.
I never asked for the past I lived,
I didn’t plan the future I have,
Nor did I want what fell between.
I didn’t see the betrayal while it happened,
By my hand and action I still was blind,
Even when I though my lesson was learned it happened again.
Tell me My Sin, did you ever know,
That when our friendship was given life,
I smiled my first smile,
A crooked thing but true in its honesty.
I was naive in dreams, and stupid with hope,
But the smile was pure.
When our friendship died, My Sin,
Still I smiled…
So sure I was for its rebirth I erred again in forgiveness.
And to hide my deepest scar…
That smile still holds…invisible tears fall.
Hopeless, I gave my heart to sorrow,
And under the cloak of your lies,
My soul keeps true to you, My Sin.
People hear what whispers say,
But no one hears what’s never said,
And no one accepts what will never be understood.
Take me as you see fit My Sin,
For I am all you think you know,
And all you think I am not,
I am free from your delusions.
I can fly as high as my heart will let me,
I can fall no farther then you’ve thrown me,
The world is up-side right,
And you’re too far to the left.
But tell me My Sin…
Was there fine print I’ve not seen till now?
Could it be…that I am your Sin as well?
Could that be the punch line?
Is that the answer to what’s never been asked?
But is it possible that misery holds strong,
Only because a pointless hope for chance,
Still lingers in your heart?
Is it right to dare think…
That such torment will be forgiven
Because you might have made a mistake?
Even though silence is all that I hear,
I expect no answers, as Sin has no voice.
I have moved on carried the winds of fate,
Since to linger in such darkness…
Would destroy what little I have left of myself.
It’s a lonely existence My Sin,
To live the lies that could never be.
To hate the one who decided life was worth something more,
More than the lies and empty promises.
Even though so much was left unsaid,
In the end, you’re the only one that can answer…
The questions that have never been asked.