Existence .......the reason

In the spreading darkness I exchange a pledge for the revolution
An evil flower that sprouted from love
With everything that'll happen after this
I can't let anyone interfere with it
The fruit of the future told me
Of a town that had lost all reason
The present is distorted in blackness
Changing dreams into reality
Why? Am I a broken Messiah?
It's an "ending" everyone desires
In the spreading darkness I exchange a pledge for the revolution
An evil flower that sprouted from love
With everything that'll happen after this
I can't let anyone interfere
Someday, I will show you
A sky shining with light
Why? Am I a broken Messiah?
It's a "paradise" everyone's dreamed of
In the spreading darkness I exchange a pledge for the revolution
An evil flower that sprouted from love
With everything that'll happen after this
I can't let anyone interfere
Someday, I will show you
A world shining with ligh

Fuck it.  I give up.  You try so hard to please people, until you come to realize that you can't.  You can't, you won't, and there's nothing that you can do about it.  So why do you strive to please?  Is it your nature to please?  Is it your way of getting respect, or love, or...what is it that you want?  Do you know what you want?  Phsytzo, Bipolar, or a plain nut case.  What do you call yourself?  You're not normal.  You are angry.  So much history.  So much to tell.  So much pain.  Why have you never told...everything?  Bits, and pieces, and this and thats.  Never, not once, did you tell EVERYTHING.  Can you tell everything?  Do you want to tell everything?  Will you cry?  Will you scream?  Will you punch the walls once more, and make yourself bleed out hatred?  Hate, so much hate.  It's all there.  Bottled up, inside, with no escape.  Let it out.  Let it free.  No, don't.  Don't risk it.  Shit.  Stop talking to me!  My head hurts.  It's raining. I like the rain.  Why do you like the rain?  Why?  heh

Doctor Doctor what is wrong with me
This supermarket life is getting long
What is the heart life of a colour TV
What is the shelf life of a teenage queen
Ooh western woman
Ooh western girl
News hound sniffs the air
When Jessica Hahn goes down
He latches on to that symbol
Of detachment
Attracted by the peeling away of feeling
The celebrity of the abused shell the belle
Ooh western woman
Ooh western girl
And the children of Melrose
Strut their stuff
Is absolute zero cold enough
And out in the valley warm and clean
The little ones sit by their TV screens
No thoughts to think
No tears to cry
All sucked dry
Down to the very last breath
Bartender what is wrong with me
Why am I so out of breath
The captain said excuse me ma'am
This species has amused itself to death
Amused itself to death
Amused itself to death
We watched the tragedy unfold
We did as we were told
We bought and sold
It was the greatest show on earth
But then it was over
We ohhed and aahed
We drove our racing cars
We ate our last few jars of caviar
And somewhere out there in the stars
A keen-eyed look-out
Spied a flickering light
Our last hurrah
And when they found our shadows
Grouped around the TV sets
They ran down every lead
They repeated every test
They checked out all the data on their lists
And then the alien anthropologists
Admitted they were still perplexed
But on eliminating every other reason
For our sad demise
They logged the only explanation left
This species has amused itself to death
No tears to cry no feelings left
This species has amused itself to death

Popping pills,
Fuck the bills!

Time kills;
Try getting some new skills.

I never want to return to reality,
I don't want to be another fatality.

Seeing things other can't,
I'm just gonna keep up this rant.

Fuck the world!

Roll up a joint,
Allow me to prove my point.

Take another hit,
Ain't no way I could quit.

Lost in a haze of imagination,
No longer do I feel frustration.

NOW I AM FREE!!

There is a sickness, a fatal disease
an illness inside that nobody sees
bit by bit, it eats away at your heart
completely tearing you apart
you'll know when it's about to begin
you'll feel like your chest is caving in
it never sleeps, it never dies
it feeds off fragile and innocent lives
you can try your very best
but know that it will never rest
it makes you weak, it makes you sad
it makes you cut, it drives you mad
you'll never escape it, you'll never be free
and I know for a fact cuz the sickness killed me^_^

The cat is calling me to dance with him,
While the dog is taking a sip of the gin.

A hookah smoking caterpillar perched on a wall
Telling the king of his mighty downfall.

A young man gives his life
For the woman he would have called 'wife'.

A pair of twins run across the sand
From the white knight with blood on his hands.

A girl lacking of will
Downs a bowl of magic pills.

A baby oyster lays dead
While the queen sobs, "Off with their heads!"

Across the sky a shooting star
As a girl flies very far

From a pool of water
Comes crystal-cold laughter

And now my tale comes to an end,
Beware who you call a friend.

Wow, I'm sick of doubt
Live in the light of certain
South
Cruel bindings.
The servants have the power
Dog-men and their mean women
Pulling poor blankets over
Our sailors

I'm sick of dour faces
Staring at me from the tv
Tower, I want roses in
My garden bower; dig?
Royal babies, rubies
Must now replace aborted
Strangers in the mud
These mutants, blood-meal
For the plant that's plowed.

They are waiting to take us into
The severed garden
Do you know how pale and wanton thrillful
Comes death on a strange hour
Unannounced, unplanned for
Like a scaring over-friendly guest you've
Brought to bed
Death makes angels of us all
And gives us wings
Where we had shoulders
Smooth as raven's
Claws

No more money, no more fancy dress
This other kingdom seems by far the best
Until it's other jaw reveals incest
And loose obedience to a vegetable law.

I will not go
Prefer a feast of friends
To the giant family.

There’s blood on the chess board,
And there’s blood on your lips,
And with every move,
My graceful queen slips.

There’s blood on the chess board,
And there’s blood in your eyes,
And with every move,
Your little pawns tell lies.

There’s blood on the chess board,
And blood on my dagger,
And with my last move,
You fell back with a stagger.

Two roads diverged in a wood,and i
I took the one less traveled by
And that has made all the difference

What if both the roads have never been traveled by..What if they have been closed for eons ....never allowing ne1 to pass through them...i say "eons" cause when your in such a situation ..every second seems to be hours....and every hour seems to be seconds....
what if one side of the divergence leads to  the most precious dream. A dream that you know will turn into reality very soon..a dream ...an intuition...a feeling ...since a small age ..showing you the path to freedom...sanity....a dream to heaven ..a dream which tell you to abandon  everything  ...all  your  emotion, feelings, relationships, materialistic needs.....a dream you have been waiting for so long.......

what would you do...would you leave everything ..everyone behind and follow what you have been waiting for so long...
or would you rather destroy something that was inborn in you to make the society happy....to make your parents happy..to make your friends happy..to make everyone happy
what would you give up....
...every action has a equal and opposite reaction...

to gain something you should give up something of equal value...
but the question is are you ready to give up..something of equal value..something so precious ...(on both ends)

Slipping into the cracks of your mind,
   Into it's complex and intricate design,
   Create what you will, do what you please,
   A new best friend? A few of these.
   A mother who loves you, a father who cares,
   Not ones who neglect, but ones who are there.
   Fall in love with a person, a person you made,
   A man in your mind, who has no escape.
  
   Your sky could be black, nightfall is red,
   People can't die; alive are the dead.
   Sorrow doesn't linger, pain has no effect,
   Since you control the people here, you suffer no reject.
   Everyone loves you, except those you choose,
   There are no boundaries here, you make the rules.
   Things are never troublesome, unless that's how you make it,
   So depression would evaporate, you wouldn't have to fake it.

   This all sounds so immature, something you'd never do,
   But why don't we try it, if there isn't much to lose?
   There is the chance that our sanity would completely disappear,
   But you wouldn't mind it being gone, once that you were here.
   This place is where things always go according to your plans,
   This place is where you have no pains, problems, or demands.
   You can see what you want, and believe all that you see,
   This place is locked up inside of you, but it's easy to get the key.
   
   So dearest imagination, consume me and take me down,
   Like a title wave that's pulling me fiercely through the ground.
   Insanity, if you capture me in the dark of tonight,
   I swear on my grave that I wouldn't resist; wouldn't put up a fight,
   This place sounds like the perfect dose of what we all need,
   So delirium please pull me in, and pull me in deep.
   Capture me forever, just like the friends in my head,
   Because I'd rather be crazy.. than have sanity drive me dead.